創作背景
歌曲由埃米納姆創作,製作人是The 45 King,副歌部分截取於蒂朵的歌曲《Thank You》。一天,The 45 King從電視中看到了《Thank You》這首歌,於是把這首歌第一部分記錄了下來。然後,The 45 King把樣帶寄給了埃米納姆。幾天后,The 45 King寫信給蒂朵,希望她同意埃米納姆對她歌曲的採樣 。
埃米納姆在歌曲講述了一個為自己而死的歌迷的故事,埃米納姆想以此警示歌迷,分清他歌中的虛實 。歌曲中,斯坦的歌詞"I drank a fifth of vodka, dare me to drive?"源自埃米納姆的歌曲《My Name Is》 。
歌曲歌詞
英文
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
rap:Dear Slim I wrote but you still ain't callin
I left my cell my pager and my home phone at the bottom
I sent two letters back in autumn you must not-a got 'em
There probably was a problem at the post office or somethin
Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em
but anyways fuck it what's been up Man how's your daughter
My girlfriend's pregnant too I'm bout to be a father
If I have a daughter guess what I'ma call her
I'ma name her Bonnie
I read about your Uncle Ronnie too I'm sorry
I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who didn't want him
I know you probably hear this everyday but I'm your biggest fan
I even got the underground shit that you did with Skam
I got a room full of your posters and your pictures man
I like the shit you did with Rawkus too that shit was fat
Anyways I hope you get this man hit me back
just to chat truly yours your biggest fan
This is Stan
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
rap:Dear Slim you still ain't called or wrote I hope you have a chance
I ain't mad - I just think it's FUCKED UP you don't answer fans
If you didn't wanna talk to me outside your concert
you didn't have to but you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew
That's my little brother man he's only six years old
We waited in the blistering cold for you
four hours and you just said No
That's pretty shitty man - you're like his fuckin idol
He wants to be just like you man he likes you more than I do
I ain't that mad though I just don't like bein lied to
Remember when we met in Denver - you said if I'd write you
you would write back - see I'm just like you in a way
I never knew my father neither
he used to always cheat on my mom and beat her
I can relate to what you're saying in your songs
so when I have a shitty day I drift away and put 'em on
cause I don't really got shit else so that shit helps when I'm depressed
I even got a tattoo of your name across the chest
Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds
It's like adrenaline the pain is such a sudden rush for me
See everything you say is real and I respect you cause you tell it
My girlfriend's jealous cause I talk about you 24/7
But she don't know you like I know you Slim no one does
She don't know what it was like for people like us growin up
You gotta call me man I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose
Sincerely yours Stan -- P S
We should be together too
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
rap:Dear Mister I'm Too Good To Call Or Write My Fans
this'll be the last package I ever send your ass
It's been six months and still no word - I don't deserve it
I know you got my last two letters
I wrote the addresses on 'em perfect
So this is my cassette I'm sending you I hope you hear it
I'm in the car right now I'm doing 90 on the freeway
Hey Slim I drank a fifth of vodka you dare me to drive
You know the song by Phil Collins In the Air of the Night
about that guy who coulda saved that other guy from drowning
but didn't then Phil saw it all then at a a show he found him
That's kinda how this is you coulda rescued me from drowning
Now it's too late - I'm on a 1000 downers now I'm drowsy
and all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call
I hope you know I ripped +ALL+ of your pictures off the wall
I love you Slim we coulda been together think about it
You ruined it now I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM about it
I hope your conscience EATS AT YOU and you can't BREATHE without me
See Slim screaming Shut up bitch I'm tryin to talk
Hey Slim that's my girlfriend screamin in the trunk
but I didn't slit her throat I just tied her up see I ain't like you
cause if she suffocates she'll suffer more and then she'll die too
Well gotta go I'm almost at the bridge now
Oh shit I forgot how'm I supposed to send this shit out
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
rap:Dear Stan I meant to write you sooner but I just been busy
You said your girlfriend's pregnant now how far along is she
Look I'm really flattered you would call your daughter that
and here's an autograph for your brother
I wrote it on the Starter cap
I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show I musta missed you
Don't think I did that shit intentionally just to diss you
But what's this shit you said about you like to cut your wrists too
I say that shit just clowning dogg
c'mon - how fucked up is you
You got some issues Stan I think you need some counseling
to help your ass from bouncing off the walls when you get down some
And what's this shit about us meant to be together
That type of shit'll make me not want us to meet each other
I really think you and your girlfriend need each other
or maybe you just need to treat her better
I hope you get to read this letter I just hope it reaches you in time
before you hurt yourself I think that you'll be doin just fine
if you relax a little I'm glad I inspire you but Stan
why are you so mad Try to understand that I do want you as a fan
I just don't want you to do some crazy shit
I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick
Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge
and had his girlfriend in the trunk and she was pregnant with his kid
and in the car they found a tape but they didn't say who it was to
Come to think about his name was it was you
Damn
中文
我的茶涼了,為什麼……
我的心情總是不好。
清晨的雨遮住了我的窗
什麼也看不到
看見的都是灰色。
但在牆上卻有你的照片,
它提醒我,還不算壞,還不算壞……
親愛的Slim,我寫信給你,但你仍未答覆。
我把我的地址、姓名和電話都留在了信末,
秋天裡發了兩封信,你肯定是沒有受到。
可能是郵局或是什麼地方搞錯了。
有時我總是把地址寫得很潦草。
但又能怎樣呢?去它的吧!你的女兒好嗎?
我的女朋友也懷孕了,我就要作爸爸了。
如果是女孩,你猜我會叫她什麼?
我會給她起名叫Bonnie
我也讀到了你的Ronnie叔叔的事兒,很難過。
我有個朋友為了甩了他的婊子而輕生,
我知道你也許每天都聽到這個,可我是你的超級歌迷
我甚至有你和Scam一起做的地下音樂。
我的房間裡貼滿了你的海報和照片。
我也喜歡你和Ruckus的歌,那很棒。
我的茶涼了,為什麼……
我的心情總是不好。
清晨的雨遮住了我的窗
什麼也看不到
看見的都是灰色。
但在牆上卻有你的照片,
它提醒我,還不算壞,
還不算壞……
親愛的Slim,你仍舊沒有回信,希望你能抓住計畫。
我還沒瘋,我只是認為你TMD不屑於回信給歌迷。
如果你不想在劇場外理我,你就可以不理,
但至少應該為Matthew簽個名。
那是我的小弟弟,只有六歲
我們在該死的寒風中里等了四個小時,可你只是說了個“不”
那個小傢伙可是把你當成了他的偶像。
他要成為像你那樣的人,他比我更喜歡你。
我還沒瘋,只是不喜歡被欺騙。
記得我們在丹佛的相遇嗎?你說如果我寫信,你會回信的
看在我們有相同的境遇的份兒上。
我也不知道誰是我爸,
他總是欺騙媽媽還打她。
我能在你的歌里看到自己。所以在那些心情沮喪的日子裡,
就好聽你的歌。
只有你的歌能幫我。
我甚至在胸前紋上你的名字。
有時我也會割開手腕看它能流多少血。
如同腎上腺素一般,那些痛楚向我襲來。
我尊敬你,因為你說的一切都是事實。
我女友開始嫉妒,因為我每天談論的只有你
但她並不像我如此的了解你,沒人能
她不會了解有著我們這樣經歷的人的。
記得回信,你將會永遠失去我這樣的超級歌迷的。
你真誠的,Stan
此外我們也將會在一起的
我的茶涼了,為什麼……
我的心情總是不好。
清晨的雨遮住了我的窗
什麼也看不到
看見的都是灰色。
但在牆上卻有你的照片,
它提醒我,還不算壞,還不算壞……
親愛的從不回信的先生。
這將是我寄給你最後的郵件了。
六個月了,從沒有回信——這不是我應得的。
我知道你受到了最近的兩封信;
我在上面清清楚楚的寫上了地址。
這回是我要寄給你的磁帶,我希望你能聽到
我在車上,在高速路上開90
嘿,slim,我喝了第15個伏特加,你說我還能開嗎?
你知道PhilCollins那首關於救一個落水者的歌“In the Air of the Night”嗎
但他沒有得救
那情形就和現在一樣,你本可以阻止我溺水的。
但現在一切都晚了,我吃了1000片鎮定藥
眼睛睜不開了,我想要的只不過是個該死的回信。
我希望您能知道我把你的照片從牆上都撕了下來。
我愛你slim。我們本應該在一起的,想想吧
現在你把一切都毀了,我想你不會睡著的,一定會夢到這一切。
當你夢到時,定會驚叫的
我希望你會受到良心的譴責,沒有我,你不能呼吸
看看吧,slim[尖叫聲]婊子,閉嘴!我正在說話
嘿,slim,那是我的女友在後備箱中尖叫。
但我不會割開她的喉嚨,我只是綁住她。
我不像你。
因為窒息而死會讓她更痛苦。
好了,該走了,我已經到橋上了,
噢,見鬼,我怎么才能把磁帶寄出去呢?
親愛的Stan,我本打算儘快回信給你,但最近太忙了。
你說你的女朋友懷孕了,多長時間了。
你能給你女兒起那個名字,我真的感到十分高興。
這裡有給你弟弟的簽名,
我寫在了信的一開始
很抱歉在演唱會上沒能見到你,我肯定是錯過了
不要認為我寫那些歌是故意讓你難過的
可你卻說你也喜歡割腕
我唱那些只是說著玩的。
嘿,你還好嗎?
你有些小麻煩Stan,我想你需要些建議來幫幫你了。
你說我們將會在一起是什麼意思?
這種話讓我不想和你見面
我想你和你的女友確實是相互需要的
也許你應該對她好一些
希望你能讀到這封信,但願它能趕在你傷害自己前寄到
只要放鬆一些,我想你會好起來的
很高興我可以激勵你,但你為何那樣瘋狂
我只要你做一個歌迷
我不想再看到你說瘋話了
兩周前的一個新聞讓我感到不安
一個傢伙開車衝到了橋下;
後備箱裡是他懷孕的女友
在車上還找到了一盒磁帶可他們沒說磁帶是給誰的……
想想看,他的名字是……是你
該死的!
歌曲鑑賞
歌中包含了蒂朵女聲憂鬱的唱腔,和埃米納姆那帶著濃厚鼻音的說唱 。首先是一陣雨聲、蒂朵憂愁的獨唱,當鼓點進入,埃米納姆的音調和音高都突然降了下來。《Stan》中,不可思議的取樣、flow、歌曲結構、書信體的表述、情感的融入都是完美的。在這個過程中,嗓音逐漸升高,而flow也變的越來越狂亂。這首歌也確立了埃米納姆在敘事型作品中屬於自己的風格特點,它給人一種清晰地畫面感 。
歌曲MV
視頻的前兩段,斯坦 (戴文·薩瓦飾演)在桌子上給埃米納姆寫信,同時還出現了第二封信中場景。第三段,斯坦服下大量安眠藥,痛飲五瓶伏特加,將他的未婚妻綁在後備箱,錄下了對埃米納姆最後的話,卻不知道怎么寄出。就在這時,他們衝下了大橋,淹沒在一片沉寂的水花中。第四段,埃米納姆收到了斯坦的來信,並給他回信 。
社會影響
2017年,單詞“stan”作為名詞和動詞被《牛津英語詞典》收錄:作為名詞,“stan”特指藝人的瘋狂冬粉;作為動詞,“stan”特指成為一名藝人的狂熱冬粉 。
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2001年9月23日 | Much音樂錄影帶獎 | 最佳國際歌曲(藝人) | 獲獎 |
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